Friday, May 21, 2010

Hmmmmm.

Genesis 1:1 "In the beginning, God created the Heavens and the earth."

What a beginning!

I knew a pastor once who told a group of us that when he was preaching, if he lost his train of thought, he always went back to Adam and Eve and went from there.
Well this morning, I've lost my train of thought so many times it is amazing I made it to my keyboard at all. So I decided to go back to the very beginning.
....and then I walked away and met the Lord in the Word. I read a verse and actually got to prayer over it. Look at what He showed me:

“The Lord our God has secrets known to no one. We are not accountable for them, but we and our children are accountable forever for all that he has revealed to us.” Deuteronomy 29:29

And now I know why my brain is racing so badly: It is full of fruit!


There are things that God puts on our hearts and we are called to pray about them. Sometimes He calls us to pray for someone and we don't know why. He does not need to tell us all of the details in order for us to be in prayer. God is not in the business of The Enquirer.

I posted awhile ago about "Being in the know" and how much we all love it to some degree or another. But God didn't leave me there on it. I love how faithful He is to me. He didn't just reveal a truth and leave me there to figure it out all the way to the end.
As I was having a hard time putting words on the keyboard. Again, like yesterday, it all felt contrived. Well, I thought, I have a cold, two of the kids are home sick, John is getting read to leave one job and start another, the bills are do and there is strife in Iran...
In other words, life is pretty normal for us. There is always something going on. Heck, because something is always going on, I always have something to write about!

And then I rememberd a conversaion I had with someone the other day after my post about the broken chain. I got a whole lot more information then I needed. I've thought about the conversation several times. I mentioned it all to John. I have played in my head how things might work out...I have pictured it and marinated on it like it was my own. But it's not. There was no intent of malice or gossip in the conversation...but it still gave me information I should not have about things I should not know about.

You see, the only thing I am responsible for are the ones that HE puts on my heart. Just because I have found something out, either by looking for it or by the gossip of another, does not mean I am suppose to go after that situation.

That has been rather the problem from that beginning as we read about in Genesis. Adam and Eve had it all, everything they could possibly need but that rotten serpent convinced Eve she was missing out on something and she ate that darn fruit from the tree of knowledge...tree of knowledge.
It put an end to everything and is the reason we live in the fallen world we do today. When we get ourselves a big old fruit salad of knowledge and try to peak into the secret places of God, we got our selves a heap of trouble.
I realized my brain was busy marinating on things that I know about but have no involvement in. They are essentially non of my bees-wax. But my brain and my soul have not communicated over it all. So I have not been able to think clearly...as evidenced by this post!
There is a silly old children's hymn that says "Be careful little ears what you hear for the Father up above is looking down in love, oh be careful little ears what you hear." It holds true for seeing as well.
Think about the worst horror movie you have ever seen. You just did, didn't you? You can't get those pictures off your brain. You can't erase it. It is already on the tape. Now you may not "look at it" or even intentionally think about it, but it does color how you think about things...forever.

The same is true for un~needed information. When God calls us to pray, he does not always tell us all the whys or whens of it. He does not need to...He is God. He knows how much information to make us responsible for and how much our soul cannot stand also.

So I got to writing and I am not sure if it will edify anyone today, but I hope it does.

For my part, I dumped the fruit of knowledge today and asked for a little more from the tree of Wisdom. I got to go before the Lord and ask Him, what do I need to know in order to pray and to show me what is from that fruit bowl.

"Reveal the fruit bowl of my sin, Oh Lord."

In the meantime I am going to continue to eavesdrop on my two youngest children while Jack answers Maggie's question about why vomit is wet.
Have a blessed weekend all!

1 comment:

Sheila said...

I hope you have a blessed weekend too!